Planes and anxiety
Hope everyone is well.
To get to the point, I irrationally developed a fear of flying when anxiety took hold. I used to love flying, but suddenly even the thought of a plane made me feel uneasy. So last week I decided to face my fear and booked a short stay with my partner to Amsterdam. The flight is not for another month but I decided nothing was going to cure my fear other than just getting on with it. It always seems easier when you are feeling mentally and physically strong with no symptoms of anxiety. However for no reason whatsoever last night I had my first panic attack in ages! I must admit I was very tired, had done nothing but run around for the past week, had very little to eat all day and had errands to run. I ended up standing in B&Q, my stomach flipping out, stomach cramps, tight chest...it lasted all night at what I would call a 'basic level' (I give my anxiety levels to help me get through it) but what a kick. I immediately started thinking about how I didn't want to get on a plane...yet rediculously, now I am feeling better today, I'm fine about going to the airport and willing to face my fear. It just proved to me how much the anxiety effects you physically and mentally.
sorry if this blog post doesn't make sense, I am so tired today, and somebody at work on the desk over from me is talking so loud I can barely hear myself think!!! roll on 5 o clock.